My thoughts on the House Sale...

As you guys might have guessed the house has finally sold. While it is for most part a good thing, my feelings on that particular subject are quite devided. I did not blog about the entire process for various reasons. So here are some of my thoughts.
Seeing the money form the sale credited to my checking account was quite nice. On closer examination I really had wished for a strong Dollar and a weak Euro. That would have really benefited me. But since it is the other way around it was quite and eye opener how weak the Dollar currently is. Of course I was aware of the exchange rate. But when you get the numbers from your Ex, I found that I was still thinking in Dollar. And that after 3 years having moved back to Austria. I was expecting to take a hit in value of about 5 Grand, but it's way more than that. Dont't get me wrong, it's still a nice sum that will be put quite good use.
I'm not even going into the entire prepping for sale and the negotiations that took place during the sales process. That's over now. I haven't been there. So I can't even say I would have handled things. That was one of the reason, why I avoided that subject up till now. You can't say what you would have done in a particular situation, since I wasn't confronted with it. Therefore I can't say with certainty what I would have done. On the other hand I do have a well paying full time job and a decent savings account. So being put into that particular situation would have been an entirely differnt ball game.
With the fact that the house has been sold, well there I do have mixed feelings. On the one side it's a great thing. A burdon has been lifted and it's one thing less you have to worry about. On the other hand it also gave me the feeling of a certain loss. You bought the property togther, remodeled it togehter and spent some good times there. It's not like you ever planned on visiting there again or of getting back together. That's just something that is very unlikely to happen. But the fact that the house has been sold makes it real. It makes it a fact and it ends this particular portion of your life forever. The only thing that stay are the memories and the pix.
While the sale of the house wasn't quite emotionally easy, seeing stuff from the house, that had originally been purchased together, being sold or given away,  made it even more tough. I realy can't explain that. I neither had any particular interest in having those items for myself. Not only because of the crazy shipping expenses, but mostly for the fact that it wouldn't fit into my current life anyways. But there is even something that was harder on me. Seeing things thrown into a trasch container. Of course those things had seen so much wear and tear, that they belonged there. But you do the memories connected to thise things. Seeing them in trash dumpster is like getting those memeories thrown away as well. I know it's silly..but emmotions are just no logical.
With all that being said this process brings an almost 10 year long part of my life to a final closure. This process was emotionally almost as hard as picking myself up by my own boot straps, moving back to Austria and rebuilding my life entirely from scratch.
I will always have fond memories of living in the SoCal High Desert and especially good memories of Agua Dulce and Vasquez Rocks. But I will always remember how much of a pain in the ass living in the back country can be.