Today I've been feeling a little blue. Well going through a separation isn't that easy. It has been a long time since I went through that and I guess I've forgotten about that particular feeling. But this is a little different. Since things are very uncertain. I don't quite know what exactly I want to do in the future and what direction I want to take. There is no clear path and that makes the future even more uncertain than it would be under normal circumstances. It all appears at many different shades of grey. That all taken together can be quite overwhelming at times. And occasionally it feels like when you're getting an anxiety attack. Good thing Daisy has been particularly attentive these days.
Once I know what I want to do and what direction I want to choose, the path should come into focus and that should make things way easier as they currently appear.
With that being said...there are also quite positive sides. One of them is, that a ton of stress and frustration has been taken off my shoulders. I don't get upset about the stupidity of politics. The lack of progress with LBGT and Civil Rights issues doesn't really bother me anymore. It's just that it's no longer of much importance and has really not much to do with me. As a matter of fact I haven't been that balanced and relaxed in quite some time...and that's something positive in my book!
Well our separation isn't your typical break up. Normally when you break up you don't continue to live with the person :). I have my moments of being down as well but we both know it was best for us to go our own ways. Luckily were still friends and you can take the time you need to figure out what your next plan is.
ReplyDeleteAnd I agree I think a great deal of stress has been lifted form both of our shoulders and that can lead to nothing but good things ahead.